Okay, I think God is telling me something...I have always been the planner in our marriage. You know, the one who calls maintenance people when something's broken, the one who plans out the meals for the week etc. Well, we have been talking about taking a vacation this summer since last summer. I was hoping to take a BIG one, and we might have but God had other things in store. Like T starting his own practice etc...Honestly, I'm so glad. I would give up a million trips for T being fulfilled and doing what God is calling him to do. But I was hoping to do both (how selfish am I). Well, we thought a smaller trip was definitely doable and I got excited and got to planning. Up until today we had plans to stay in the Keys at a really nice resort. I say "had" because the travel agency emailed me that the room rates are double what they originally said and there is nothing they can do. The funny thing is the whole time I was excited but never felt this was it. Being earthy myself, I just wanted it because it seemed fun and I am so ready to take a vacation. I finally realized I needed to stopped thinking out of my neediness and give this up to God. He knows what I need and when I need it better than I EVER could. Well, as soon as I did that (it was about 15 minutes ago), I felt like God was saying let "T" plan the whole thing. Whoa!!!! I have more control issues than I thought I had. Didn't all those go away last time I had ministry time? No?! What's neat is that as I walk this out, it is giving "T" the opportunity to grow in the other direction. Now he can "bless" me and I can relax. Funny, but when I think of it that way...why didn't I get this sooner?